Vacation’s Over… Soon.

Ya… I’m damn bored. I mean, everyday, I have this routine of pure boredom. But then when the thought comes that I’ll be going to school soon, damn, I can feel the pressure coming my way. It’s like, I really don’t know what I like. Well, my mind says yeah I wanna finish college and have a job blah blah, but my body says “hey! I d0n’t want to.” haha. Like any other kiddos, I want to graduate, have high grades, and excel at school whatsoever. As what I’ve experienced in my first year in college, I know I can do better if I ain’t lazy. I know a lot can agree to this. That when you’re bored you wanna go to school and say to yourself that you’ll be working hard but when you’re there, you wanna have a vacation.LOL.

So much for that. Time is too fast. We’re waiting for tomorrow not enjoying what’s happening today. In just a blink of my eye, I’ll be on my way to my second year in college. It seemed like yesterday when I was still in high school dealing with what I call “big problems” and when you step to a new chapter in your life, you’ll see that those aren’t that “big” at all. I had quarrels with my friends thinking they aren’t real and dreaming that in college I’ll find better ones. But as I stepped in, I cherished them as much as I did before yet you really don’t know who’s real. You don’t know that there are more dangers as you grow older.

Before, I feel so bad whenever a friend misses to tell me something blah blah. But in college, I had friends who I now see as the worst. A one who tells false stories about you. Well, the story goes like this.

I had this friend I cherished as the best and as what I’ve seen, I know she’s a real one. I hate plastics and I love the fact that she’s real. I’m the one who fights for my friends and she knows that. I’m also a person who’s straightforward. My boyfriend(also mybestest friend LOL) knows my classmates and my friends since he’s picking me up at school when I have to go home late(coz he won’t allow me to travel late alone). He’s been their friend as well. Yeah, I’m the one who gets jealous easily but when it comes to my friends, I give 100% trust and never feel a bit of jealousy. They’ve been exchanging text messages and that’s good for me coz I want them to stay close since they’re all dear to me. A day came where my boy and I had frequent quarrels and I expect my friends to help me out. They know how I love my boy and that he’s the one I’d like to be with forever (yihee.LOL). I thought she’ll talk to him to fix things out but it turns out that she’s telling him false stories about me and made the situation worse. He trusts them as I did and of course,coz he knows they’re my friends and that they’re the one I’m always with. But he still asked me all about it and I was damn furious as he told me everything. I never thought that she’ll be the one to do this. He didn’t tell me at first coz he doesn’t want our friendship to be ruined by him. I insisted and he told me who that person is. I cried a lot for I never imagined she can do that to me.Yah, I’ll understand it if she tells real stories about me and if she told em right. The words were harsh that’s why he also couldn’t bear it. The worst thing is that she acts like she’ll help me confront the girl blahblah and I can see in her eyes the guilt of seeing me crying. I decided to go coz I can’t bear to see her face in front of me. I don’t want to hurt her physically or verbally coz still, she’s my friend. I just let it go and till now, she ain’t saying sorry or whatever and she still won’t admit it. Yah, I just let the drama fly, but the trust isn’t there anymore.

As time passes, I learned to think and care for my future. I mean I shouldn’t be crying over these kinds of stuff anymore. I should just let it fly, and go on . No one can stop me from pursuing my dreams. Neither a fake friend, my aching back nor my baby fatsLOL. I learned to live , laugh and love. Those issues aren’t that significant in my damn path. Those are just tidbits, extras, and I shouldn’t be thinking of em. I’m focusing on my dreams. My dream of living with my mom again and giving her the best life , have a stable job, bring to life my promises, marry and have kids and so on.

Teenage drama no more. BURN IT! Haha. “Let the good times roll” and as for them, yah, juz do ur thang and I’ll do mine.

Be happy sabi ni Jollibee. hehehe =D

I’ll leave you with a simple pic. This doll isn’t torn anymore.

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