"Writing is my drug"-Rain

Dito po..

torndoll — Tue, 02 Sep 2008 12:25:03 +0000

I update this more often.

Back to School Madness

torndoll — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 10:39:50 +0000

I told myself before that I would love to attend classes again. But as the morning sunshine kisses my cheek, I’m about to back off. I ain’t ready to go to school yet.

As I walked in out street this morning, the “oldies” were kinda jokin me that it seemed like I’m still into the vacation thingy. I told them I’m gonna miss the vacation. Damn it, it was sooooo hot. UBER SA INET!!! I’m just sitting yet sweat is running all over my body (all over eh noh?). Then as I reached school, we have to search for our rooms whatsoever. WOooh. The day was uber tiring mga dong hehe ^^. All of these resulted to NONE! Nak ng eklat oh…minsan ng napilitang pumasok la pang nangyari!

But then that’s ayt. At least I saw my friends again. But damn, I have body pains!

*No pics for now. Damn tired and wasn’t able to take pics.Hate Low Bat Phones!*

By the way, I want to thank everybody for passing by. =D I’m touched on the stats. More and more views everyday. Love you all. Feel free to leave comments ^^. And for those who left theirs, thanks, I do appreciate it. THANK YOU ^^. MARAMING SALAMAT PO. ü

Here comes pressure

torndoll — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 10:34:58 +0000

hmmm..Again, I dunno if I’m excited or what. Yah, I’m damn bored.

I’ll miss my daily routine.wakeup-lie down-eat-laptop-eat-laptop-eat-laptop-sleep.

Things I did this summer:

1.Sleep

2.Eat

3.Bday/Gig

4.Student Summit

5.Reunion

6.Edit pics everyday

7.Go to school to fix school thingy

8.text

9.eat and eat

10.stay at home

11.had a haircut sponsored by probinsyana(momi)

12.ahmm.watelse..

13…

And tonight’s my last night of sleepin soo late. I’ll be attending class on Tuesday. T.T

I’ll miss my room. ate cora. ate maan. jacob. sam and the rest of the family.

I used to hang out with them,

or rather, see them every minute. T.T goodbye.

Here’s some pics I edited a while ago and yesterday:

BOREDOM PHOTOGRAPHY

Photos by moi.

and yeah.

i’m the queen of vanity.

haha.

Vacation’s Over… Soon.

torndoll — Thu, 29 May 2008 03:33:17 +0000

Ya… I’m damn bored. I mean, everyday, I have this routine of pure boredom. But then when the thought comes that I’ll be going to school soon, damn, I can feel the pressure coming my way. It’s like, I really don’t know what I like. Well, my mind says yeah I wanna finish college and have a job blah blah, but my body says “hey! I d0n’t want to.” haha. Like any other kiddos, I want to graduate, have high grades, and excel at school whatsoever. As what I’ve experienced in my first year in college, I know I can do better if I ain’t lazy. I know a lot can agree to this. That when you’re bored you wanna go to school and say to yourself that you’ll be working hard but when you’re there, you wanna have a vacation.LOL.

So much for that. Time is too fast. We’re waiting for tomorrow not enjoying what’s happening today. In just a blink of my eye, I’ll be on my way to my second year in college. It seemed like yesterday when I was still in high school dealing with what I call “big problems” and when you step to a new chapter in your life, you’ll see that those aren’t that “big” at all. I had quarrels with my friends thinking they aren’t real and dreaming that in college I’ll find better ones. But as I stepped in, I cherished them as much as I did before yet you really don’t know who’s real. You don’t know that there are more dangers as you grow older.

Before, I feel so bad whenever a friend misses to tell me something blah blah. But in college, I had friends who I now see as the worst. A one who tells false stories about you. Well, the story goes like this.

I had this friend I cherished as the best and as what I’ve seen, I know she’s a real one. I hate plastics and I love the fact that she’s real. I’m the one who fights for my friends and she knows that. I’m also a person who’s straightforward. My boyfriend(also mybestest friend LOL) knows my classmates and my friends since he’s picking me up at school when I have to go home late(coz he won’t allow me to travel late alone). He’s been their friend as well. Yeah, I’m the one who gets jealous easily but when it comes to my friends, I give 100% trust and never feel a bit of jealousy. They’ve been exchanging text messages and that’s good for me coz I want them to stay close since they’re all dear to me. A day came where my boy and I had frequent quarrels and I expect my friends to help me out. They know how I love my boy and that he’s the one I’d like to be with forever (yihee.LOL). I thought she’ll talk to him to fix things out but it turns out that she’s telling him false stories about me and made the situation worse. He trusts them as I did and of course,coz he knows they’re my friends and that they’re the one I’m always with. But he still asked me all about it and I was damn furious as he told me everything. I never thought that she’ll be the one to do this. He didn’t tell me at first coz he doesn’t want our friendship to be ruined by him. I insisted and he told me who that person is. I cried a lot for I never imagined she can do that to me.Yah, I’ll understand it if she tells real stories about me and if she told em right. The words were harsh that’s why he also couldn’t bear it. The worst thing is that she acts like she’ll help me confront the girl blahblah and I can see in her eyes the guilt of seeing me crying. I decided to go coz I can’t bear to see her face in front of me. I don’t want to hurt her physically or verbally coz still, she’s my friend. I just let it go and till now, she ain’t saying sorry or whatever and she still won’t admit it. Yah, I just let the drama fly, but the trust isn’t there anymore.

As time passes, I learned to think and care for my future. I mean I shouldn’t be crying over these kinds of stuff anymore. I should just let it fly, and go on . No one can stop me from pursuing my dreams. Neither a fake friend, my aching back nor my baby fatsLOL. I learned to live , laugh and love. Those issues aren’t that significant in my damn path. Those are just tidbits, extras, and I shouldn’t be thinking of em. I’m focusing on my dreams. My dream of living with my mom again and giving her the best life , have a stable job, bring to life my promises, marry and have kids and so on.

Teenage drama no more. BURN IT! Haha. “Let the good times roll” and as for them, yah, juz do ur thang and I’ll do mine.

Be happy sabi ni Jollibee. hehehe =D

I’ll leave you with a simple pic. This doll isn’t torn anymore.

Summer Boredom

torndoll — Thu, 08 May 2008 11:01:56 +0000

“I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like
A thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment
I am happy, happy”

“I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles
A backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I’m counting UFOs
I signal them with
My lighter
And in this moment
I am happy, happy”

I remember when I was still stuck up with school works and all those academic drama I’m dealing with. I was sitting at a chair beside the window, all by myself, while my classmates are all into their chatting sessions while the professor’s away. That was the time when my world seemed to be wrapped with that Incubus song. I smell summer’s breeze and was kissed by the morning sun. I sat in the sand while loving the view of the sea in front of me. I closed my eyes and heard someone greeted Good Morning. Damn! It was my professor. I was day dreaming again.

When I was heading home, well, another long trip for me. (I love riding in a bus without air condition, for it’s my time of thinking, about lots of stuff, with the breeze slapping my face to go back to reality ) I knew that my summer vacation will be the same. No fun. No summer trips. Just staying at home. I was like, “ayt.” hmmm.

Whatever. I told myself I should make my vacation worthy though I can’t make it on having summer trips. My friend told me she’ll help me with the scholarships. Voila! I haven’t heard of her since my party. Nice. So, I’m stuck at home. Right.

I had a party last April 12. It was fun but also tiring. I had my high school friends and college friends here at home with some of my relatives as well. It was a party and gig at the same time. I got four bands, one was founded by my best buddy Maw and I was one of the members. One band came all the way from Las Pinas. I love the sound trippin but I think I got no enough time for my guests. But it was ayt. Ended early dawn, I think.

Then, I attended a reunion, again, with my high school friends. I went there with my boyfriend. I hate the place for there were a lot of people. Swear! And I hate the birthday girl there, well, that’s a soo long story. But ended good, I miss my girl friends. Got amazed in my first truck ride! It was fun fun fun!

Another friend of mine told me about the Student Summit in PLM so I decided to go. I went there with one of my best buds, Maw, and my boyfriend of course. (He’s like my best buddy! HE’s not the type where you have to blink three times, have a retouch every 30 mins. I mean, I can be me infront of him. No patweetums required.) That wasn’t the trip that I wanted. I hate Manila’s polluted streets. It simply stinks! I dunno. But I love Intramuros! I love being there for you’ll see art in every glance. The day was too tiring, but it was fun! Dex and I saw Shamrock (yuck) at Malate.

I attended an orientation of Philippine National Red Cross 143 Volunteers and there will be an upcoming 3-day training and a blood letting as well. Got sick when I got home. Good thing I’m with Dex and he took care of me that day and the next day.

Now, damn bored. Just like any other day. Beating the summer boredom. =P

*i hate the end of this post either =P*

Pacquiao wins again

torndoll — Sun, 16 Mar 2008 05:33:34 +0000

In a very thrilling fight, Pacquiao made the Filipinos proud, for once again, he bagged the victory in his fight vs Juan Manuel Marquez. With a score of 115-112, 114-113 for Pacquiao for two judges and 115-112 for Marquez for the third judge,a new WBC super featherweight champ was crowned. (BTW, He’s the coolest boxer, he had an award winning international performer sing live while he was walking towards the ring. APL of Black Eyed Peas sang Bebot! Asteg!) It was a very intense and unpredictable fight. I was so nervous for Pacquiao at the first two rounds. Good thing he had Marquez knocked down on the third round. The next rounds was full of tension! Gawd. Especially when Pacquiao got a cut in his eye and he seems to be dizzy in those rounds. But he made the Filipinos proud by giving off more heavy punches and a couple of combinations. Congratulations Manny Pacquiao! Beware of suck up corrupt officials. I know they’ll be kissin your ass once you got back here.

Marquez is such a loser. He isn’t a good sport. He seemed to be so angry at Pacquiao in his interview after the match. He’s too “high and stong!*eew*”. He said that when Pacquiao knocked him out, he wasn’t hurt. Come on! He said we saw that he came back to his feet and continued the match. Also he said he asked for a rematch with Pacquiao but Pacquiao disagreed because Manny knew Marquez is stronger. *Such an arrogant loser!* (I thought he’ll be doing a commercial here in the Philippines too like Morales, but, with that kind of attitude, I guess not. LOL)

The Battle of the Sumilao Farmers

torndoll — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 09:57:24 +0000

Lets show our everlasting support for the Sumilao Farmers: we are hoping to send this message to 144,000 people (symbolizing the 144 hectares of land)subject : Sumilao farmers ask for our continued vigilance as the 4th Nego with San Miguel resumes on Wednesday (144,000 emails for the famers)

(Justice Delayed Is Justice Denied)

The Sumilao Farmers had been suffering for more than 12 years in fighting to regain their 144 hectares of ancestral land in Sumilao, Bukidnon.

In spite of the legal and moral clarity of the case of the Sumilao Farmers and the promise of President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo last December 2007 to finally give back their land, no significant progress has happened. Up to now, the words of President Arroyo to finally resolve and return the 144 hectares to the rightful Sumilao owners remain to be an empty promise.

Even with the ongoing negotiations between the Church Task Force on Sumilao and San Miguel Corporation, no document has been released to-date to particularly identify SALFA and MAPALADas the rightful beneficiaries while fast tracking its own air-conditioned piggery inside the 144 hectares.

On Wednesday, March 12, 2008, the 4^th round of negotiations will resume. We are closely monitoring the said negotiation and the actions of San Miguel Corporation and the government. We pray that the government and San Miguel Corporation will have the resolve to finally put an end to the sufferings of our farmer-brothers and sisters from Sumilao by making good of their promises.

If nothing concrete favoring the aggrieved Sumilao Farmers will come out of this negotiation, the 144 Sumilao Farmers together with the various Church-based organizations, colleges, universities, schools, non-government organizations and people’s organizations have long been prepared to launch the following campaigns:

1) Continuous March around Malacanang Palace

2)Boycott of All San Miguel Products

(especially Monterey Products)

Please send this information to all people you know as a concrete _expression of our continuous vigilance in Support of the Sumilao farmers. We hope to circulate this email to 144,000 people.

May this be our clear message both to San Miguel Corporation and to President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo that we will never grow weary of our loving support for the Sumilao Farmers in their fight for social justice.

Manalangin. Manindigan. Makialam.

SIMBAHANG LINGKOD NG BAYAN

(blackpropaganda27.multiply.com,2008)

Not just for the grade

torndoll — Tue, 11 Mar 2008 09:53:19 +0000

Projects. We have to complete our requirements.We are given these tasks to learn something from it. But to some, they’re just thinking about the pressure and they’re making it just for the grade. Why not enjoy it?

Here’s one of our projects this sem. It’s our project in Social Science IV.

Enjoy viewing ü

Injustice Ruins My Day

torndoll — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 06:21:49 +0000

I miss my mom. I don’t talk to her often ’cause when she’s calling, it’s either the card wasn’t enough or i dunno. Watevr! My sister and I had a little chat last night. Another bad news. I thought my mom would be here for my birthday, she wants to, I know, but she can’t.

She had a case there where her boss wasn’t paying her enough whatsoever. The point is, her boss is damn evil! GGggr. And now, her lawyer said that she should have the case to a somewhat higher court but winning the case is quite impossible because in those kinds of cases, the higher class wins. Hmp..

The world is just so unfair. Hmp. Wherever you are, there’s something quite annoying.

Back to Where I Started

torndoll — Thu, 28 Feb 2008 09:41:08 +0000

I forgot the addresses of my previous blog sites and I know those sites are too senseless. Who the heck read those entries. None. But… I was wrong.

I accidentally found my old blog sites through different people who used to exchanged links with me, and finally, I saw that there are persons giving comments on my posts. Mind you, I don’t know them ü soo touched.

I hope I’ll have regular readers here ü